Mammogram

It’s that time again. Mammogram for me. I go faithfully every year. This year I went in on a Monday. The technician was excellent. She was very kind and gentle. She viewed the slides and said they came out good. If there were any issues, I would be getting a call back within a day.

I always get nervous because in 2017 I got a call back before I even got home from the mammogram. I was so scared. They asked me if I could come back right then and there for a few new x-rays on the right side. This was my very first time getting a call back. I was beyond scared and worried.

The technician explained that there was an asymmetrical shape in the right slide. I could see it when the technician showed me. It looked like an oval. She re-did the xrays, and then sent me in for an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed nothing and when the x-rays came back, the radiologist reviewed them and said the asymmetrical shape was a flap of skin and nothing to worry about. It had something to do with the compression and the dense breast tissue.

So going back to the original paragraph, February 2020, I got my mammogram on a Monday. Tuesday early afternoon I received a call on my cell phone. I recognized the phone number right away as it was Baystate. I didn’t want to pick it up but I did. “Hello, this is Sharon” I said …….”Hello Sharon, this is Jaime from Baystate radiology. I wanted to let you know the radiologist saw something on the mammogram that is different from previous films and wants you to come in for another x-ray on your right breast. I started to cry a little. The next available appointment was the following Monday at 1:30 pm. I scheduled the appointment, hung up the phone and really cried. My mind began to race. OMG what if it’s cancer? What if I have to get a mastectomy. Am I going to die? I thought myself into the grave within 5 minutes of getting the phone call. I don’t have will, what about my dogs? Who will care for them when I am dead? I have too many clothes that don’t fit, I have to get my affairs in order.

I had to talk to someone so I called my sister and she talked some sense into me. She reminded me that there are 5 sisters in our family. 4 out of the 5 of us all got called back due to dense breast tissue. She made me feel better and I began to think more rationally. I know I still need a will but the rest can hold off for a week.

I kept myself very busy over the next week. I went for long runs and took the dogs for many walks. I organized my closet, got rid of some clothes that didn’t fit and also donated some things I no longer needed.

Finally, it’s Monday again. I worked 1/2 a day, then drove to the https://www.baystatehealth.org/locations/breast-and-wellness-center

I sat in the car for half an hour because I was early. I prayed, I cried and I then again thought of what my sister said. I got out of the car and walked slowly into the building. I felt like I was moving in slow motion. The office was on the 3rd floor. I took the stairs as it was a way for me to get the anxiety out by walking. I checked in, and within minutes my name was called. A very friendly lady greeted me and explained what was going to happen. I was guided into the room where I changed into a very pretty colored burgundy johnny. It was a one size fits all or as I say fits most. I wrapped it around me twice and tied it tight. It made me feel more secure. The tech was very kind and reassuring. She explained why the test was being redone and was extremely professional. After the test was done, I was placed back in the waiting room with many other women.

I couldn’t help but wonder if they were there for “recalls” or did they have breast cancer? Was their screening routine? It was so very quiet and no one was talking. I sat quietly and prayed.

After about 20 minutes, the technician called my name. I got up and followed her. She brought me back to the room where I originally changed into that burgundy johnny. She shut the curtain partway and she looked at me. I was trying to read her expressions but couldn’t. She finally spoke. She said I have nothing to worry about. The spot the radiologist saw on the original slide was an artifact. ” My brain said “Artifact? The last time I heard that word was in an Indiana Jones Movie? She explained it was most likely movement that cause blurring or it could have been improper compression. I was so relived I shed a few tears and hugged her.

In closing, getting called back after a mammogram doesn’t mean you have cancer. It means there is a difference in the previous xray. It could be a flap of skin, compression or the simple fact as women age, the breast tissue gets displaced with fat. From what I read, only 10% of women get a call back for a repeat mammogram. Most of the call backs have a happy ending like my story.

Loss of a loved one

I recently lost a special person in my life. It is my cousin Lucas. He was only 42 years young. He was diagnosed with Leukemia 2 years ago. He fought a very tough and courageous battle. We thought for a brief moment in time he was going to be okay. He had a stem cell transplant and everything was going GREAT! He was 98% donor and 2% himself. He joked and said ” I hope you all still LOVE me even though I am 98% someone else.” How he kept a sense of humor was beyond me. He recently got the clear from his doctor to go back to work. He has young children which he loves dearly.

On August 25th 2019 we got the devastating news he passed away suddenly.

Stepping back into the early 1980’s when I was 14 years old, I had the pleasure of babysitting Lucas Monday through Thursday. Every day after school I would walk to their house right next door and take care of him while his parents worked. My aunt and uncle worked different shifts so they could coordinate care. I arrived promptly at 3:00 pm and sleep there until 5:00 am where I would get up and go home to get ready for school. The best part was my Grama Rose was there with me too. She and my aunt and uncle along with Lucas lived together.

What a pleasure it was to have a job at 14. I think back now and realized it was never a “job”. It was being there to help my family. The money was amazing $40 a week back in the day was amazing, and all I had to do was play and love my cousin. That was the most rewarding and easiest “job” I now now realize I will ever have.

I attended the service for Lucas this past Sunday in Connecticut. It was well attended by all of our loving family and friends. I did the best I could to assist in the service and provide things to help the family. I designed a slide show with music that celebrated all the different times of his life. I also made up some forget me nots in packets that were handed out and will be planted in his honor in the Spring. They are so good for the environment and pollination.

A flash back: I’ll never forget the day as Lucas got older, we were playing ball out in the yard. I had just gotten engaged. We were taking turns pitching and hitting. All of a sudden, Lucas looked down and picked up a very shiny something in the grass. He said ” Wow, look at the pretty shiny ring I found”. I looked down at my finger and and almost lost it. He found my engagement ring in the thick grass that I never even noticed was missing! It must have fallen off when we were exchanging the baseball glove. THANK YOU LUCAS!

In closing, I am organizing a fundraiser for his children. The forget me nots are $2.00 per packet. Plant in the spring. All profits will go directly to his children. NO personal profit taken from me or anyone else. Email me sharonroses2@yahoo.com to donate. As always God bless you and thank you for your support!

The red cardinal has many traditions and myths. They revolve around good health, renewal, happy, and healthy relationships. If you dig deep into the life of these birds you can see why so many good things are associated with their sightings.

Unlike other birds that are polygamous, red cardinals are monogamous. They mate for life and living within a small area for the rest of their lives they protect fiercely. When their babies are hatched, both parents are responsible for taking care of them to ensure their survival and security

Here, Kitty, Kitty, Kitty Can we adopt you?

We found this black and white stray cat in our back yard. It was so very friendly!! It followed us around everywhere the whole day. When we went inside it sat on the top of the front step wanting to come in the house. It was meowing like crazy. I say “it” because i wasn’t sure if it was a male or a female. We immediately posted the lost cat on https://www.pawboost.com/ and also on the local town facebook page.

We took turns feeding him small amounts of chicken. Yes, chicken. The same scrumptious, juicy, delicious chicken my dad had just taken off the rotisserie grill outside. He/she ate it like it hadn’t had a good meal in months. That is why we fed it small amounts so it wouldn’t throw it up.

The cat lingered around from Sunday to yesterday (Tuesday). We knew it was going to get cold outside so we were hoping and praying for news from it’s family. Tuesday came and the cat was still outside on our doorstep. My parents decided to let him in the house because the neighbors Tom cat was trying to attack the kind, sweet, gentle, friendly cat. My dad opened the door and the cat casually walked into the house like he owned the place. He walked down the hallway and laid on the bed in the guest room. After all, he was a guest. When dinner time came around, he woke up from his “catnap” and sat on my dads lap as he was trying to eat his dinner. Just about then, the phone rang. Who could it be? My mom answered the phone and we heard her explaining the we did find a cat……………..Could it be??????? Yes, it was someone that thought it may be their cat. The pet was actually recognized through the Sterling, CT town website / forum. The cat belonged to a family with small children. They recently moved and the cat got out. He (yes HE) had been missing for 6 weeks!!!!! He was at least 3-5 miles from his new home. The owner that called us about the cat described him to a “T”. She said his name is Timmy.


We texted the owner a few more photos and she said she is sure that was him but didn’t want to tell her children until her husband came to see the cat to make sure. And to make a happy story even happier, the cat was in fact their lost cat Timmy.

I was asked to do a follow up email to https://www.pawboost.com/ to answer some questions. They wanted to know:

Q-How were you able to capture the lost pet?
A-We didn’t capture it, he captured us (our hearts) We knew we had to find the owner of this cat. He had a Seresto Flea collar on so we knew where ever he came from the family cared about him.

Q-How were you able to reunite this pet with its owner?
A-We took pictures of the cat and posted it on Pawboost and the Sterling, CT town/forum website. We got many hits from Pawboost and so many shares and comments. People that visit your site are very kind and caring people.

Q-Was PawBoost able to help?
A-Pawboost is a great site to raise awareness of missing pets and also to help reunite the owners with their pets. Although it didn’t help finding this particular cat, I will still use it and visit the site frequently. I travel every day for work in my car 100’s of miles. I am always on the look out for stray animals. When I do see one, I always look at your site to see if I can possibly help.

Q-Would you recommend PawBoost to a friend?

A-Absolutely

Q-A-If so, why?

A-Pawboost is an excellent resource to post and find lost pets. There are so many shares and it can reach millions of people!

I would recommend https://www.pawboost.com/ somehow link their lost and found animals to the city/town where the cat was found through the facebook link such as this one

https://www.facebook.com/groups/322014831475576/